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My OC, Aaron.

My OC, Aaron.

Well, I strongly feel the need to update/ speak freely. 

Recently my hard drive suddenly died on me, no warning  ; A; I thought, wow about 7 years of artwork, music, programs, games, photos… memories all gone. I’ve backed up some things a long time ago but even my backups are currently gone now. Out of most of the possessions I own, the only one I’m really attached to is my computer because of the energy and life it had stored on it. I’m starting to realize that maybe the attachment I have for it has taught me a very life reflecting lesson. 

I’ve been on a very interesting life journey recently and have seen so many troubling things within myself. All of my wounds that need healing, things I’ve blocked out, just a bit of everything show casing itself. It’s been telling me that if I want to catapult myself to the next level and beyond I need to make conscious changes and learn to let go. It hasn’t been easy. The imagery in my dreams were haunting and the constant unveiling of the truth made me numb and lonely.

So I think this harsh lesson from the universe has spoken clear lol. Even though I’ll miss everything on that hard drive, it was probably something that had to be let go. It served its purpose and is no longer needed for future journeys (even though I was working on cool posters and lost it all orz haha). Maybe it was a sign that I need to start fresh and holding on to it wasn’t something I needed. In realizing this I need to apply this to other aspects of my life. Especially my future art career. A lot of times I feel “blocked” by something and can’t seem to draw or paint what I feel or from imagination. Its a very crippling feeling. Some time last summer I decided to drop out of school. It really wasn’t helping me and caused more harm to my spirit than good. I was also doing it for the wrong reasons. 

So I currently I want to do a form of independent study. But knowing what it takes to do that, and doing it successfully, I need to let go of a lot of things that keep me stuck in this non progressive stage in my life. If I do that, I can move forward a lot more freely. Because the way things are at the moment are just stunting my growth. 

I think that anyone having troubles gaining success or progressing further with their goals can benefit from self/ life reflection and see if there is something you need to let go. 

Thanks for reading. Love you all,

-Lovli :)

  

Bun-bun ♥
Character belongs to Brimochi. 
She was fun to draw c: Hope you like it!

Bun-bun 

Character belongs to Brimochi. 

She was fun to draw c: Hope you like it!

I obsessively draw Mako too much.  She’s mah fav x3
I’d have more to show but my hard drive died and I lost all my work of 7 years .____.”  lol May need to open commissions to replace all my busted hardware :B

I obsessively draw Mako too much.  She’s mah fav x3

I’d have more to show but my hard drive died and I lost all my work of 7 years .____.”  lol May need to open commissions to replace all my busted hardware :B

practice

practice

Quick painting partially from photo ref :)

Quick painting partially from photo ref :)